sometimes I just feel.................

Dear Ones:

Do you ever have those days when you feel like having an "a conceited attitude" (hormones)? I do. I recently went through a few days when I was angry with everything and everyone. I was even angry at the dog. I felt so depressed with life. The person I was really angry at the most was God. It was so senseless and so conceited of me. Doesn't His word show us to have love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control type of attitude?

Galatians 5 22-26

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other. NIV

I didn't want to walk in His word. I didn't want to be kind, good, or gentle. I didn't want to show self-control. When I remembered this scripture it just made me want to stomp my feet and yell "Let me BE this way for awhile" UGLY, selfish, mean spirited. uncontrolled and just darn well unlikable to everyone. I think I would have even kicked the dog too. OUCH. Our Father loves us so much, but He does not give us permission to be ugly just because our hormones are racing. PMS and menopause have been used to excuse our behaviours for to long. I am very guilty of this.

Read the scripture again. Wow! Do you see the difference in how the words even roll off your tongue? Say kindness out loud. Come on don't be shy, KINDNESS. Now say MEAN SPIRITED out loud. Do this with all the words. See how God even made His word sound so much sweeter to our souls, hearts, and on our tongue. The ugly words sure can help you not walk in His SPIRIT, just by speaking them and thinking them.

Another reminder that we need to hide His word in our hearts, another reminder what our Father calls us to be. LIKE HIM. Even through the times we struggle with an "attitude" even when we don't want to be like Him. Lets be honest we have all felt this way. That is why it is so much easier to sin. It feels good, for the moment. Thank God we have the hope His Spirit fills us with.

When you have a real bad day because your kids will not mind and are always fighting with there siblings. When your husband hoards the remote and you have to watch one more sports show. Or he rolls his eyes at you when you tell him you are tired and would he put the kids to bed tonight. His attitude showed, "You were home all day what did you do?" Grrrrrr. When everything that could go wrong goes wrong. The toilet floods, because your dear son/daughter flushed his diaper down it. When the bills pile up and throwing them on the floor and paying the ones that land up first is not working anymore. You wonder how you are going to make it one more month. When your boss at work gives you a pink slip. Or the boss at work seems to not appreciate you, and it made you feel so small.

Take these words in Galatians speak them OUT LOUD, yell them if you have too. Remember how much sweeter His word is when we have an ugly (hormonal) day. Memorize these words so they are right near your heart. It seems when I have the "a conceited attitude" even if I can't remember all the words I can come up with at least one I can yell out.

Once again God has helped me get through, I may not have liked it. Once again I had to fall on my knees and ask for forgiveness. I may not have liked His correction. What I do know is that God is in control. As long as I keep on trusting Him. Every time I feel His love reach out to me and hold me in His arms, He still holds Me, Debi, selfish, hormonal and a very slow learner with His fruits of the Spirit.

He loves you so,

love, debi